pregnant

Faith Through the Uncertainty of Pregnancy

I remember looking down at that long plastic wand and seeing the undeniably flat, pink line, and then again looking at another one that read, even more unmistakably, ‘1-2 weeks’. I was pregnant. I was about to get something I looked forward to having since I was eight years old and understood that I could have my own babies. Back then I just wanted another baby that looked like me and I loved my family so I wanted one of my own. But finally being the reality, it didn’t feel as magical as I imagined it. Exasperated by the fact that it was not planned, it just felt scary. Continue reading “pregnant”

Priyanka didi

Having lived in five different countries outside of my birthplace Trinidad — USA, England, Italy, France and India — for a period of time ranging from one month to five years, I have amassed a large extended family of sisters, brothers, aunties, uncles, mothers and fathers. But nowhere has the expansion of my extended family happened so rapidly as it has in India. In India I am Priyanka didi. Priyanka because it is the ‘Indian version’ of my name and didi because it is what all Indians call women or girls near to their age. It means sister… Continue reading Priyanka didi

a tomboy

Consider this — if we are conditioned to believe that the clothes make the man, then by a woman wearing a man’s clothes, she is thus made into a man, not born into a man, but made — by society. And thus my question is — is it better to be conditioned into identifying yourself by your biological gender or the opposite gender? Which one is more difficult? Continue reading a tomboy