spirit

Four years ago I was at a friend’s house for dinner and bible study. There were twelve other students there and we were laughing and chatting. There were a million reasons for me to be smiling and energised — the dinner was hearty, the dessert was intensely sweet, the conversation was full of quirky humour and I didn’t really have a care in the world. Despite all of this, for absolutely no identifiable reason at all, I felt exhausted, a mighty fatigue, as though I had run a marathon that same day. I felt like the people in those anti-drugs ads a few years back who they portrayed as flat pieces of rubber against the couch. The best way to describe it, though years later I realise it could never be described effectively, is that I was like a character in a video game whose life was running on low. Life itself seemed to elude me. Continue reading “spirit”

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powerful

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I have been reading, watching and listening to a lot content that has given me a strong conviction to pray more. I’ve seen a man call down rain from heaven to stop a raging bush fire and through prayer grow potatoes where it would otherwise be impossible to grow in the movie Faith Like Potatoes. I’ve seen a man save 74 lives on the battlefield during World War II in the movie Hackshaw Ridge because he believed in the power of God’s protection and prayed ‘help me save one more’, leaving with only four minor injuries despite being alone on the ridge with the Japanese soldiers. Continue reading “powerful”

unqualified

Ever since my last blog, I have been trying to think of something to write about. I usually write about revelations I have based on experiences, for the purpose of helping or encouraging others who are going through the same thing. However, I have not been able to put my finger on a topic or point as I have never, ever felt more out of my depth than I have since becoming a mother. I have never felt so little self-assurance. I have never been in so many minds. I have never been so unable to process and produce. Continue reading “unqualified”

arrogant

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As the US election approaches and debates about key issues can be seen plastered on the walls of Facebook, one particular comment resonates with me and my current situation. It is the statement that, ‘My body belongs to me and I can do whatever I want with it.’ I don’t know about other women but I don’t really like to go around boasting about my body. In reality my body is a lot more faulty than I ever would have wanted it to be. Continue reading “arrogant”