addicted

‘I know that the feelings and thoughts of inadequacy that have plagued me my whole life, starting in high school, have NEVER trumped how grateful I am to be Bianca, the girl who was once asked why she always tries to be different, the girl whose answer to that was that she doesn’t try at all, she tries not to be sometimes but just gives up because she fails miserably. I know that the pride I feel in being ‘loved’ on social media is trumped by my desire to not rub my blessings in the face of the many out there who at that moment don’t have what I have and my desire to be a light that shines on the path, so that people can follow the way of the truth, rather than being a harsh, bright spotlight that shines on myself and leaves others in my shadow. My desire to show my life as amazing is always trumped by my desire to be vulnerable and share the whole truth, which I’ve seen countless times is not popular on social media — social media inhibits true vulnerability rather than encourages it…’ Continue reading addicted

Advertisements

media-free

For the last four days I have been ‘offline’ – my phone data has been switched off and I have not checked social media or followed any online links to articles, videos or stories and I have not done much texting and no What’s App. I have also not read any newspapers, though this was not difficult as I hardly read them anyway. Here are my resultant insights… Continue reading media-free